We're getting use to the idea...

So its been a few days since we have found out we are having twins. On Sunday the hormones kicked in again and I spent an hour crying lol Why? well.... a little of everything. overwhelmed, elated, helplessness, joy, worry and in the end i was even crying about crying lol thats when I knew I should stop. Tony came upstairs when I had already gone through a box of tissues and consoled me that he would never leave, always help, and that everything was ok :') after that I felt much better... and felt very silly for crying and worrying but I think it was for the best because since then I have been very positive. After that we drove down to the book store and bought Twins! you can guess whats its all about.
I have been having conflicting feelings about how and where I should have the babies. At first it seemed only right to ditch the old fashioned way I was favoring for conventional medicine with obstetricians and a perinatal specialist but after some research I am not so sure. There is a higher rate for full term natural births with midwives While a normal hospital birth with a regular ob has 60% chance of c section and higher chance of low birth weight and prematurity.I went to visit Stafford hospital (the local hospital where I would give birth) today and although its not so bad the nurse there told me as a precaution twin deliveries are always transferred to the operating room right at birth. I feel uneasy about that. I want a natural birth without the bright lights and the poking....but I dont want to be unsafe. I think I am leaning to my current OB... just because Im tired of worrying about it. We'll see... I have an appt with the specialist on 29th for another ultrasound and another with OB on the same day to start all the testing. Ill just stop thinking about it for now and wait.
I am getting excited about the Idea of twins though! I am looking for good light car seats and a rear facing double stroller. a co sleeper to fit two. and Im looking forward to having a nice big belly with extra kicking in a few months. Im sure I will be so tired then but I like the idea now lol.
Johnny blurts out "Your pregnant," to me "with two!" at random times. I wonder what he thinks. He looked uncomfortable with my crying the other day and asked me what hurt. He gives me a kiss and asks if I feel better. At the market the other day a really bad headache made me throw up in the bathroom. He looked really grossed out lol poor baby. Over all he seems happy.
Tony is trying to be as involve as I am in this whole thing but he is going through a whole career and lifestyle change so its understandable that he is in two different worlds at once. but even with that he still is so reassuring and wonderful. and in the next 2 months when I get bigger he might grasp it more.
I cant wait to find out what they are!!! boys or girls. I am hoping they are girls just because I dont know how I will feed and take care of 4 boys ... I mean 3 boys and 1 man lol. but If they are boys I will think how lucky i am to get two of what originally just wanted one of. anyhow I will write again on the 29th if not sooner.
I have to figure out whats for dinner tonight. and speaking of food our babies are the size of kidney beans this week :D