We had our 2nd ultrasound on friday april 29th 2011
and here is a picture of my huge belly already on april 30th
and here is a picture of my huge belly already on april 30th
Saturday, April 30, 2011
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
We're getting use to the idea...
So its been a few days since we have found out we are having twins. On Sunday the hormones kicked in again and I spent an hour crying lol Why? well.... a little of everything. overwhelmed, elated, helplessness, joy, worry and in the end i was even crying about crying lol thats when I knew I should stop. Tony came upstairs when I had already gone through a box of tissues and consoled me that he would never leave, always help, and that everything was ok :') after that I felt much better... and felt very silly for crying and worrying but I think it was for the best because since then I have been very positive. After that we drove down to the book store and bought Twins! you can guess whats its all about.
I have been having conflicting feelings about how and where I should have the babies. At first it seemed only right to ditch the old fashioned way I was favoring for conventional medicine with obstetricians and a perinatal specialist but after some research I am not so sure. There is a higher rate for full term natural births with midwives While a normal hospital birth with a regular ob has 60% chance of c section and higher chance of low birth weight and prematurity.I went to visit Stafford hospital (the local hospital where I would give birth) today and although its not so bad the nurse there told me as a precaution twin deliveries are always transferred to the operating room right at birth. I feel uneasy about that. I want a natural birth without the bright lights and the poking....but I dont want to be unsafe. I think I am leaning to my current OB... just because Im tired of worrying about it. We'll see... I have an appt with the specialist on 29th for another ultrasound and another with OB on the same day to start all the testing. Ill just stop thinking about it for now and wait.
I am getting excited about the Idea of twins though! I am looking for good light car seats and a rear facing double stroller. a co sleeper to fit two. and Im looking forward to having a nice big belly with extra kicking in a few months. Im sure I will be so tired then but I like the idea now lol.
Johnny blurts out "Your pregnant," to me "with two!" at random times. I wonder what he thinks. He looked uncomfortable with my crying the other day and asked me what hurt. He gives me a kiss and asks if I feel better. At the market the other day a really bad headache made me throw up in the bathroom. He looked really grossed out lol poor baby. Over all he seems happy.
Tony is trying to be as involve as I am in this whole thing but he is going through a whole career and lifestyle change so its understandable that he is in two different worlds at once. but even with that he still is so reassuring and wonderful. and in the next 2 months when I get bigger he might grasp it more.
I cant wait to find out what they are!!! boys or girls. I am hoping they are girls just because I dont know how I will feed and take care of 4 boys ... I mean 3 boys and 1 man lol. but If they are boys I will think how lucky i am to get two of what originally just wanted one of. anyhow I will write again on the 29th if not sooner.
I have to figure out whats for dinner tonight. and speaking of food our babies are the size of kidney beans this week :D
I have been having conflicting feelings about how and where I should have the babies. At first it seemed only right to ditch the old fashioned way I was favoring for conventional medicine with obstetricians and a perinatal specialist but after some research I am not so sure. There is a higher rate for full term natural births with midwives While a normal hospital birth with a regular ob has 60% chance of c section and higher chance of low birth weight and prematurity.I went to visit Stafford hospital (the local hospital where I would give birth) today and although its not so bad the nurse there told me as a precaution twin deliveries are always transferred to the operating room right at birth. I feel uneasy about that. I want a natural birth without the bright lights and the poking....but I dont want to be unsafe. I think I am leaning to my current OB... just because Im tired of worrying about it. We'll see... I have an appt with the specialist on 29th for another ultrasound and another with OB on the same day to start all the testing. Ill just stop thinking about it for now and wait.
I am getting excited about the Idea of twins though! I am looking for good light car seats and a rear facing double stroller. a co sleeper to fit two. and Im looking forward to having a nice big belly with extra kicking in a few months. Im sure I will be so tired then but I like the idea now lol.
Johnny blurts out "Your pregnant," to me "with two!" at random times. I wonder what he thinks. He looked uncomfortable with my crying the other day and asked me what hurt. He gives me a kiss and asks if I feel better. At the market the other day a really bad headache made me throw up in the bathroom. He looked really grossed out lol poor baby. Over all he seems happy.
Tony is trying to be as involve as I am in this whole thing but he is going through a whole career and lifestyle change so its understandable that he is in two different worlds at once. but even with that he still is so reassuring and wonderful. and in the next 2 months when I get bigger he might grasp it more.
I cant wait to find out what they are!!! boys or girls. I am hoping they are girls just because I dont know how I will feed and take care of 4 boys ... I mean 3 boys and 1 man lol. but If they are boys I will think how lucky i am to get two of what originally just wanted one of. anyhow I will write again on the 29th if not sooner.
I have to figure out whats for dinner tonight. and speaking of food our babies are the size of kidney beans this week :D
Thursday, April 7, 2011
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Eureka!
I have found a midwife! ...Today Tony Johnny and I had lunch at Panera and met Joey our midwife, She was great! she has lots of experience and is really reassuring. I am glad that I followed my instincts and decided against the other place. I am so glad that I will have the personal experience with someone through my whole pregnancy and delivery and what makes this even better is that I dont have to go anywhere, she will be coming to our house to do all the checkups!! how wonderful is that?! I am so happy with the way things are working out.
I have been having some other eureka moments. like this afternoon while i was making dinner for us I was thinking about my first pregnancy with johnny. I had wanted (like i want now) a boy and over a few days last week I had really worked myself up with worry about having a girl. I even spent a few hours crying but my a ha moment today was a subtle acceptance. I realized like before i have absolutely no say in what has already happened and that I will love my baby regardless.
Other then that life is still pretty good. We are having the first ultrasound done tomorrow! I am very excited!!
I am remembering how things happened with Johnny more now. I remember that it was an easy pregnancy but I also remember that I wasn't working and that I would sit around and read a lot. So I very well could have had the fatigue I am having now I just had more opportunity to relax. Anyway my point was that I remember the feeling of seeing my babys heart beat for the first time. How exciting it was even though it was still such a little thing. I am looking forward to seeing that again tomorrow. Specially since it has been 5 years or so since i was last pregnant. I am so excited. Ill write again tomorrow...
I have been having some other eureka moments. like this afternoon while i was making dinner for us I was thinking about my first pregnancy with johnny. I had wanted (like i want now) a boy and over a few days last week I had really worked myself up with worry about having a girl. I even spent a few hours crying but my a ha moment today was a subtle acceptance. I realized like before i have absolutely no say in what has already happened and that I will love my baby regardless.
Other then that life is still pretty good. We are having the first ultrasound done tomorrow! I am very excited!!
I am remembering how things happened with Johnny more now. I remember that it was an easy pregnancy but I also remember that I wasn't working and that I would sit around and read a lot. So I very well could have had the fatigue I am having now I just had more opportunity to relax. Anyway my point was that I remember the feeling of seeing my babys heart beat for the first time. How exciting it was even though it was still such a little thing. I am looking forward to seeing that again tomorrow. Specially since it has been 5 years or so since i was last pregnant. I am so excited. Ill write again tomorrow...
Saturday, April 2, 2011
The father of my next child
Tony reading to me in one of his funny accents!
the finger waving is very important for making a point in this reading.
(hes trying not to laugh when he realizes im filming)
the finger waving is very important for making a point in this reading.
(hes trying not to laugh when he realizes im filming)
Friday, April 1, 2011
To birth at home or not to birth at home?
Tony and I decided to have a home birth!! .... ..... hum.... now we just have to go through it. lol
I had Dr appointment on Tuesday. It turns out that the appointment was to collect information to get a chart together to send up to my a military ob. but since we've decided to do a home birth i canceled it (and I prefer a civilian dr anyhow). I switched my Insurance from tricare prime to tricare standard so i wouldn't need a referral. I had called Birthcare, A group of midwives that works out of Alexandria VA, they Scheduled an appointment for me for May 3rd. since that was about a month from now (a long time if your worried) I called my old ob and went in to get blood work done and I scheduled my first Ultrasound for april 14! how exciting. and after I got home I called birthcare again today and asked for something earlier and they scheduled me for the 18th. I am worried... birthcare even though they do home births you dont see only one midwife... you see several and when delivery time comes you dont even really get to choose. to me thats a total turn off. almost the whole point is to be comfortable with the person thats assisting you. So im not too excited. and another thing. I like my normal OB dr a lot. Shes nice, understanding, and I never feel rushed and she delivers in a hospital really close to home. Im conflicted. I called another midwife (Joey from Sacred Journey) thats farther but she would work closely with me. Im excited to see if she would help me ... but I am worried if i should even be thinking of doing this thing at home. the whole thing is a tough decision. I want to have this baby naturally and preferably at home. with my husband and son and maybe an extra doula. I didnt have a negative experience at the hospital the first time like some people ( but then again what the heck did i know back then i was only 18). but I would like things differently I want to sit in my rocking chair. walk around. take a bath sit on my yoga ball.or meditate. light candles and sit in the dark, i want to be listening to oldies and relaxing for the first 8 centimeters. basically i just want comforting things to make things go by easier. I dont know but i am envisioning it so strongly maybe i shouldn't even question it....... but then I remember the pain lol.... yay... what if i'm a weenie? lol what if i really need medication. what if the baby wants to take 16 hrs like johnny did. Im just scared and worried.
I guess this isnt really a good blog. since im just ranting. but there it is.
I had Dr appointment on Tuesday. It turns out that the appointment was to collect information to get a chart together to send up to my a military ob. but since we've decided to do a home birth i canceled it (and I prefer a civilian dr anyhow). I switched my Insurance from tricare prime to tricare standard so i wouldn't need a referral. I had called Birthcare, A group of midwives that works out of Alexandria VA, they Scheduled an appointment for me for May 3rd. since that was about a month from now (a long time if your worried) I called my old ob and went in to get blood work done and I scheduled my first Ultrasound for april 14! how exciting. and after I got home I called birthcare again today and asked for something earlier and they scheduled me for the 18th. I am worried... birthcare even though they do home births you dont see only one midwife... you see several and when delivery time comes you dont even really get to choose. to me thats a total turn off. almost the whole point is to be comfortable with the person thats assisting you. So im not too excited. and another thing. I like my normal OB dr a lot. Shes nice, understanding, and I never feel rushed and she delivers in a hospital really close to home. Im conflicted. I called another midwife (Joey from Sacred Journey) thats farther but she would work closely with me. Im excited to see if she would help me ... but I am worried if i should even be thinking of doing this thing at home. the whole thing is a tough decision. I want to have this baby naturally and preferably at home. with my husband and son and maybe an extra doula. I didnt have a negative experience at the hospital the first time like some people ( but then again what the heck did i know back then i was only 18). but I would like things differently I want to sit in my rocking chair. walk around. take a bath sit on my yoga ball.or meditate. light candles and sit in the dark, i want to be listening to oldies and relaxing for the first 8 centimeters. basically i just want comforting things to make things go by easier. I dont know but i am envisioning it so strongly maybe i shouldn't even question it....... but then I remember the pain lol.... yay... what if i'm a weenie? lol what if i really need medication. what if the baby wants to take 16 hrs like johnny did. Im just scared and worried.
I guess this isnt really a good blog. since im just ranting. but there it is.
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