Pickles

There where a few things that compelled me to take a pregnancy test. One of course was missing my period but even that wasn't a big deal since it is normally erratic and late, second of course was the tenderness in my breasts that I normally don't even think about. but the third was the pickles. The Saturday before we found out Tony Johnny and I When to a local park thats near our house. It has several fields where they play soccer, baseball and other sports. in the middle is a playground (that on the weekends is swamped by the younger siblings of those who play) to the right of that playground is a soccer dad that hangs out on the weekends and sells hot dogs and drinks. it was a little chilly so we sat on a sun warmed bench opposite of that. Johnny was busy playing and so Tony and I went to get a water, Tony decided he wanted candy, I decided that a pickle sounded soooo yummy. After we went to sit on the bench Johnny would come back every few minutes to ask for either a bite of candy or of my pickle. After I finished the pickle.... I bought another. I know I have cravings for things once in a while... but eating these pickles made sense to me. As if having pickles in my diet regularly would be an improvement. I thought of why I wanted not just one pickle... but two that day... and even though I worried I pushed it out of my mind after we left. Over the last few days Ive been eating pickles out of the kosher pickle jar in the fridge. Its looking half empty (or half full :) ) today.
the other night when I was making tomato basil and mozzarella risotto I had the urge for garlic.... I chewed on a slice of garlic and although it was pretty spicy it was really good. Even the idea sounds good to me right now... when I told tony that he said it must be his baby (as if it wouldn't be! lol).
Who knew cravings hit so early?

And speaking of food...
this week the baby is the size of a lentil! which is part of what we are eating tonight for dinner! how appropriate. :D

here is the park
the place where i got my pickle is in the background

The Big News!

Tuesday Tony had half of the day off. All three of us went to the local pool, Johnny was very eager to try his new blue goggles. We had a great time. Tony was amazed to see how well johnny was swimming. After he went to work, Johnny and I went to the market to do some shopping. We were passing the personal hygiene section and I thought to myself.. 'hum.... it has been a week'  I bought 2 $3 pregnancy test (after about your 4th test you start buying the cheapest) and thought nothing of it. Threw it in the race car/shopping cart along with our meals and snacks for at least the next 3 days. Went to the eye doctors place to pick up new contacts then after calling Johnny a grumpy gus 2 (or 3) times for acting so moody we drove home. I brought in like 7 bags of groceries and two 24packs of seltzer water (we fly through them). I sent Johnny for a nap upstairs since it was so obvious he needed a one. I unpacked all the groceries and 10 minutes later I was going to go make sure here was having quiet time not just playing but I peeked in and he was fast asleep. I went downstairs and looked at the box and though 'what the heck?' I needed to go anyway. 2 minutes later as I looked at the test i had to hold on to the counter because i was sobbing with so much happiness. I couldn't believe that after almost a whole year of negative tests, ONE finally came out positive! Well that lasted a good five minutes i think. with all kinds of positive thoughts from, "Im going to be a mommy again", " johnny is going to be a big brother!" , to "Why did i get a cat again, should i get rid of him?" , and "What have I had to eat these last few weeks.", and of course "why now? what did we do different?", " was it my constant hula hooping?" lol or "Was it Tony reading about evolution and wanting to procreate?" a millions questions really... then.... I started to get worried.."What if we have another miscarriage?" and "OH NO, What if its a false positive?!" so quickly i grabbed a bottle of seltzer water and drank almost all of it! 10 minutes later I prematurely took another test lol... 2minutes later... my hand is shaking holding another plus (positive) pregnancy test. 'This might actually be happening.' i think to myself. but no it cant be happening... For sure this brand of pregnancy test is faulty! I have to go get another. Tony is working late that night I had time. I called CVS and asked them to refill my prescription from months earlier. Before I left home I called my sister Joanna and asked her what I should think. of course she said the best thing to relax, take it easy, that miscarriages happen when its suppose to. to be positive and happy!  cried a little more then headed to CVS for a new pregnancy test and prenatal vitamins. As Joey suggested one of those that spell it out for you. Of course when I got home and took the test it said 'Pregnant' i thought it was finally safe to tell Tony. We picked him up that day. When he was in the car I told him I bought prenatal vitamins and a pregnancy test. He asked "why, do you think your pregnant?" i nodded, (Johnny from the backseat:"Mommy show Daddy the blue thing")"Are you pregnant?"  I nodded "your Pregnant?!"  ."mm hm" I cried and he got teary (lol because as sad or happy as this man gets ... it seems that tears cant go any farther then the corners of his eyes) he hugged me, we kissed, and we both smiled really wide.

We are going to have a baby!