I cant believe I havent written in so long! probably since ive been honey mooning :D

I am 26 weeks as of yesterday! I have been feeling great for the last two months but I feel the 3rd trimester creeping up on me.... oh goodness is the belly BIG!

Ive been so wrapped up in doing things this summer I forgot to write. and Ive been too tired to stay up on the computer...
two weeks ago (at 24 wks) I had my Baby Shower Luau! it was wonderful... my great friend Karoline put it together and my sisters and mom came out to visit.

I think that it was the best possible choice to do it in my second trimester. I still had energy to write thank you notes and do more shopping... we basically have everything we need for the first 6 months now. And I dont see how I could have done it in a few weeks.
for the last month ive been pushing myself.. not giving in to sitting down or not cleaning the house.. but I just feel now like im running out of energy a lot faster. I need breaks often. My belly has just been getting so heavy. It feels like in the last 2 weeks they have grown so much. Im worried if theyve dropped already... but im going to continue to stay positive. I have an ultrasound tomorrow and a midwife appt next week... I hope all is well.
well thats all Ill write again.

June 23, 2011 - 18 Weeks

At 18 weeks they are the size of bell peppers. :)

changing direction

Today I am 4 months along! Im very excited. A few problems have come up from a month ago. My body is trying to adjust for the babies. I get low blood pressure and I get all woozy,  I think I may have carpel tunnel and I now have aches after standing a lot or at the end of the day. I am really getting bigger. I look right now like I looked at 7 months along with johnny. There is 9 inches of baby in there but im just growing out. lol

Last night my whole right arm went numb. It wasnt the first time but it was painful... so I called my OB this morning and the nurse told me to go to the ER that I could be having a stroke. .... I told her that I couldnt be having a stroke for the last two weeks. Up till now I have been trying to give them a shot you know.. saying ok maybe this is better for the babies..  but now I realize its really not good for ME. I spent  6 hours in the ER about 3 weeks ago and all they told me it was low blood pressure and that its normal... I am not looking to sue my doctors........ I am not looking to be any ones medically complicated story.... and I know twins are complicated and different but they aren't anymore hazardous to your health then one normal baby. at least thats how im taking it now... I know im having "problems"... but ive decided to just go with the midwife I was originally going with. But just to be safe I will continue to see the perinatal specialists for ultrasounds. It makes perfect sense. because if worse comes to worse... Ill just go back to the negative OBs and deliver in the OR room. But now I am so excited to go with my originial plan of a home birth.
I have scheduled my first appointment with Joey (my midwife) for the 28th. and although it will cost a few hundred more... I am so positive and think my instincts have pointed me in the right direction :D

14 Weeks/ May 25,2011

I am officially in the 2nd trimester now! the miscarriage rate is like less then 5%. Im very excited about being this far along. I was looking at the 1st belly picture I took when I was 10 weeks and now I feel ridiculous for feeling self conscious then. In a month I will be thinking how wonderful I had it at 14 weeks lol. so here is the belly now. I had an ultra sound done last week but forgot to pick up the pictures. I will try to this week. they look pretty much the same though. they just look bigger.

At the ultrasound there was one baby that was such a sweet little one. he/she looked to be cuddled up towards the bottom. and was just hanging out the other one (he/she shall remain nameless) was acting crazy! i think it was the same one that was acting like a little ninja the first time. kicking and throwing fists in the air. I always thought that with identical twins theyd have the same sort of temperament. but i guess not.
Also Im about 90% sure ive been feeling them move. Only 100% on 3 occasions though. Its so exciting! i talk to them as if i know the exact reasons why they are bothered. ... ill say I know I know ill get you some water right now lol or i did forget that prenatal vitamin hu? or something silly like that.
I cant wait till Tony or Johnny gets to feel them. I felt johnny early too at 14 weeks. but i was thinner then by like 20 lbs
Speaking of lbs Ive gained 12 lbs already (sign) they say its good to gain 5 lbs in your 1st trimester with twins so im only up 6 and if there is anywhere i can blame 6 lbs on its my breasts. theyve gone from a's to c's in 2 months. and I can honestly say I am not happy about it at all. I keep telling myself just to be accepting with it all.

On a different subject It was our One year anniversary yesterday!!! tony took the day off and we headed up to MD for the day we found a wildlife refuge off of the highway that was really nice. they had a big exhibit  considering it was out of the way.

and out side was a great path with lots of geese we  also saw a deer eating lilies

a turtle crossing the road,

a red winged black bird, and some little bugs.It was so nice.
After that we had dinner at Medieval Times!

Johnny made such a gorgeous knight. and Tony such a handsome king. :D
it was a great day.. not to mention it only took a little over an hour. over all it was a wonderful day and 1st anniversary.

belly shots?

Tony and I have decided to start taking belly pictures every week since we both feel that its going to grow fast. I dont know why its so big. Apart from being twins, I am carrying around 100% more blood they say and all the water im constantly drinking adds to its overall size and it just looks huge because im sure on someone taller it wouldn't look so bad.

I have another specialist appointment on Tuesday the 17th where Ill get another ultrasound. So it may mean lots of pictures since i will be seeing them every 2-3 weeks. Im very excited to see them again. and to see how much they have grown. I am 12 weeks along now and the babies are the size of limes.

I am almost into the last week of the 1st trimester!! so the chance of miscarriage drops :D and although im confident with this pregnancy there is still the worry. other then that the babies are developing normally and everything looks good. they are identical which add even more wonderment to this whole thing. I mean its kind of creepy that they are going to look exactly alike. but then I wont ever have to decide which one outfit looks better. Ill just put on both. and they'll have each other. and maybe that telepathy thing... the possibilities are endless! they'll be so cute. I want to find out the gender as soon as possible! I want to know what to buy or put on my registry. lol


Ill post my next ultrasound pictures Tuesday.
ill write again then.

Little ones

We had our 2nd ultrasound on friday april 29th 2011
and here is a picture of my huge belly already on april 30th

We're getting use to the idea...

So its been a few days since we have found out we are having twins. On Sunday the hormones kicked in again and I spent an hour crying lol Why? well.... a little of everything. overwhelmed, elated, helplessness, joy, worry and in the end i was even crying about crying lol thats when I knew I should stop. Tony came upstairs when I had already gone through a box of tissues and consoled me that he would never leave, always help, and that everything was ok :') after that I felt much better... and felt very silly for crying and worrying but I think it was for the best because since then I have been very positive. After that we drove down to the book store and bought Twins! you can guess whats its all about.
I have been having conflicting feelings about how and where I should have the babies. At first it seemed only right to ditch the old fashioned way I was favoring for conventional medicine with obstetricians and a perinatal specialist but after some research I am not so sure. There is a higher rate for full term natural births with midwives While a normal hospital birth with a regular ob has 60% chance of c section and higher chance of low birth weight and prematurity.I went to visit Stafford hospital (the local hospital where I would give birth) today and although its not so bad the nurse there told me as a precaution twin deliveries are always transferred to the operating room right at birth. I feel uneasy about that. I want a natural birth without the bright lights and the poking....but I dont want to be unsafe. I think I am leaning to my current OB... just because Im tired of worrying about it. We'll see... I have an appt with the specialist on 29th for another ultrasound and another with OB on the same day to start all the testing. Ill just stop thinking about it for now and wait.
I am getting excited about the Idea of twins though! I am looking for good light car seats and a rear facing double stroller. a co sleeper to fit two. and Im looking forward to having a nice big belly with extra kicking in a few months. Im sure I will be so tired then but I like the idea now lol.
Johnny blurts out "Your pregnant," to me "with two!" at random times. I wonder what he thinks. He looked uncomfortable with my crying the other day and asked me what hurt. He gives me a kiss and asks if I feel better. At the market the other day a really bad headache made me throw up in the bathroom. He looked really grossed out lol poor baby. Over all he seems happy.
Tony is trying to be as involve as I am in this whole thing but he is going through a whole career and lifestyle change so its understandable that he is in two different worlds at once. but even with that he still is so reassuring and wonderful. and in the next 2 months when I get bigger he might grasp it more.
I cant wait to find out what they are!!! boys or girls. I am hoping they are girls just because I dont know how I will feed and take care of 4 boys ... I mean 3 boys and 1 man lol. but If they are boys I will think how lucky i am to get two of what originally just wanted one of. anyhow I will write again on the 29th if not sooner.
I have to figure out whats for dinner tonight. and speaking of food our babies are the size of kidney beans this week :D